I am very sorry for your continued symptoms. I understand that you might have organ and/or neurological damage which may be causing the continued symptoms. No one should wish this on anyone.
Let me explain a little about the science of this novel virus. No human before last year was ever infected with Covid-19. This means that all the data we have has come from a little more than a year of research. You say you are following the science and those of us who get ourselves vaccinated "follow the lemmings". That is a false statement. Science will continue to learn more about this virus but this is what we know right now. If you were previously infected with the virus and also receive the vaccine you have improved immunity over the natural immunity that usually comes with being infected. Why is that? It might be because humans have never been exposed to this particular virus and our natural immunity may not yet have figured out the best way to fight it. You are simply risking your life and others not to receive the vaccine. I am also sorry for that as well...