Not been on in a while!

[Lady D]

Hi everyone. Sorry I have not been on in a while. i've had a lot going on the past couple of months. A few Sowalers on my facebook friends list are aware of what I've been through. It's been hard for me to deal with. My 90 year old father passed away April 1st from the effects of final stage Alzheimers. I as well as my mother had tended to my dad at their home and had to witness the daily decline of his health during the 6 weeks before his death. This week is going to be especially hard as his 91st birthday would be this Thursday, May 5th. It's going to be especially hard for my mom as they were married 62 years. I was not present when my father passed away, I was not told of his passing until after he had died. It was so hard to see him laying lifeless, I was in a state of denial about his not going to recover prior to his death but finally had to accept the inevitable. This has caused a lot of anxiety for me this past 2 months and more so now since he has passed. Just had to talk about it. Hope this is ok.

 

[ameliaj]

Oh, Lady D. I'm so sorry for your loss. Having nursed 2 parents and a couple of childless aunts and uncles through the final stages of life, I feel your pain, sadness and loss. It is hard to face the regular world when your focus has been on care giving, but I assure you, time doesn't heal everything, but it makes it easier to handle. Keep your chin up and take each day one hour at a time. Thinking of you. Message if you need to talk. I've been there a bunch.

 

[Gidget]

Of course it is ok! I needed to do same after nursing my father before he passed. It helps to share and ameliaj's post was very supportive and I couldn't have said it better.

Bless your mom's heart - 62 years of marriage - how sweet is that.

Sending support your way
Gidget

 

[DD]

God luv ya, LadyD. Glad you felt you were ready to share. I've been thinking of you.

 

[Lady D]

God luv ya, LadyD. Glad you felt you were ready to share. I've been thinking of you.

Thanks DD. I've been to the cemetery twice since he died to see his crypt. I actually stayed after the service to see his entombment, my mom didn't but I wanted to see him taken care of right to the end, and did.

 

[Sheila]

So sorry to hear about your dad Lady D. I know how though it is to lose a parent. Alzheimers took my only sister as well and it is a terrible disease. I am keeping you in my prayers. Bless your heart.

 

[iwishiwasthere]

Sorry to hear of your Dad's passing. Many of us on the board are dealing with the same situation. Prayers coming your way!

 

[Lady D]

Thanks everyone, this has really increased my anxiety and stress. Seeing him unresponsive the last 3 days was hard, he tried to talk to me but couldn't. So sad and pitiful. But he is in a better place now and that my mom and I are grateful for as he would not have liked living the way he was, had he known, he had gotten to where he knew no one anymore or anything anymore.

 

[kathydwells]

So sorry for your loss!

 

[BeachbumAggie]

very sorry for your loss and I hope with each new day comes a great sense of peace for you and your family